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This use to be my life.I use to be happy and have a husband that I
loved more then anything.There was a time that I could fall asleep and feel secure.I once could wake up and feel happy.Four
months ago ,my world came tumbling down.I lost what was dear to me and the days got longer and nights became darker.My husband
meant the world to me.I stayed faithful throughout our relationship but for some reason one day I was not enough for
him.He found a better way,a brighter light.He found something in someone else and I was no longer cared about.I know
that when I married,I married for better & for worse.I married for richer or poorer.Someone didn't take those vows
as serious I guess.Marriage and love are very sacred to me.I struggle everyday to think how this could have happen.I
never thought it would happen to me.This whole time I thought my husband just needed time and would come back soon.I know
now that he's not coming back and has decided to care for someone new in his life.He says he hasn't slept with anyone.Am I
that big of a fool to believe this?All I know is that the thought of that sickens me to the point of death.He says he's
dating now.DATING?Last I heard, he still loved me and wanted to be with me.What happen within a few weeks to go from that
to dating?When do my feelings get considered?Doesn't my husband know that, that would kill me to hear and know .He think's
it's okay for some reason.The way I see it is that we are still married ,living together or not.Besides he just slept
with me a few weeks ago.Even wanted to have a baby.Now he wants to do that with someone else.How can someone be so heartless?How
could I have never mattered?Did he think telling me this was going to make me happy?It killed me and there's no sorry for
doing that.He thinks I have cheated on him.People like to tell him this to make him move on.I would swear on 10,000 bibles
and the depth of my soul if I could to tell him that I haven't because I really haven't.Those people can't make up his
mind but they like to influence it.What it all comes down to though is what he believes and if his faith is with me or those
"PEOPLE".Are their words worth losing your true love over?I love you Johnathan.This page is for you.All I wanted was
for you to come home.I waited everyday.I cried everynight.Home,home is where I am.I am where your heart is.
"I LOVE YOU"
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